Ok, so this post is a long time coming and to be quite frank, I don’t even know where to begin! These past few months have literally been the worst in my life so far, but because of that, I have met some wonderful people, been to some beautiful places, and realised just how much of an impact those around you have on your life.
I’m not going to go into detail about what’s happened, for those that know, I hope they’ve kept it to themselves, and for those that don’t, well to be quite honest, there’s no need to know. This last year at uni has been an eye opener to me, and I’m only three months in! The boys I’m living with now are truly amazing. Without them, I can guarantee I wouldn’t still be at university today, I wouldn’t be finishing my degree, making the most of my time whether day or night, and I wouldn’t have been able to get through everything without them. I owe them a lot, more than what a simple thank you could ever cover, they really are like brothers to me and I’m so glad to have met them. I never thought I could get on with people so quickly, to feel like family in an instant, but they’ve proven me wrong, but this is one of those rare occasions where I’m happy to admit I’m wrong (they don’t come around very often – I can be quite stubborn at times!) Without the help of the boys, my beautiful best friend Chantelle and my family, I know I wouldn’t have been able to cope.
I’m not one to be honest with my family, that was one of the reasons I created this blog, it was a way to communicate with them through letters rather than words. I’m not want to talk things through, I can write, but I have no voice. After everything recently I’ve learnt that your family are there for you no matter what. Honesty really is the best policy and I know that now, if I had spoken up before, maybe none of this would have happened – who knows! But what I’ve learnt from this, I will hold and take with me forever. The past may have happened but I don’t have to let it be my future as well, I can control what happens, and providing I stay on track, anything can happen.
Like I’ve said, I’ve been and done a lot recently too and it couldn’t have come at a better time! From a week in Bristol, to seeing First Aid Kit at the Albert Hall, watching Wicked at the theatre, to starting a new job for a PR company. I’ve done work experience, booked a trip to Paris, met up with old friends, and made new. There have been so many ups these last few months, and that is what I need to remember. No matter how bad things maybe, there’s always something better waiting to happen, you’ve just got to fight your way through to allow yourself it.
I’ve lied to people for a while now, and this is me being honest, no I’m not alright, but I’m a hell of a lot better than I have been and each day, I’m getting stronger. If I could change the past, I probably wouldn’t. I’ve learnt so much, and I hope I can always be honest to those around me what it is going on, because they stick around for a reason – they love and care about you and will do anything to help. So the moral of the story is boys and girls, be honest. Even a simple white lie will come to light eventually and will make things worse in the long run. Be yourself and you will learn to love yourself and those around you. Make the most of your time, conquer all your fears, reach all your goals, and make your dreams a reality because you might only have one shot at this, so don’t regret the things you didn’t do.
Be honest to yourself and you’ll be honest to those around you.