It’s getting to that time of year again where my head feels likes it’s going to explode. My stomach implode. And my mind is just going to disappear. If you hadn’t realised, it’s March. Yes, it might just seem like another month, but when you’re a university student – this is by far the worst month! (or at least it is for me)
I thought first year was bad, but I’d happily go back there! For five weeks straight I have two deadlines a week (bar one week). Probably sounds pathetic to some people, but you know what, I don’t care. I’m stressing away to get all this done. But I’m working hard too.
Not only do I have all these deadlines, but we’ve also been told to decide on our dissertation, as well as prepare for exams. Anything else they want us to do? This year is flying by so quickly, I’m scared to even look to the future!
All that aside, I was talking to my study coach the other day about how I’m coping with my work load. I hadn’t realised myself, but compared to last year I’m doing rather well if I do say so myself.
Last year, while now it looks like I had hardly any deadlines, I was stressed to the maximum, making myself ill. But this year, it’s all different. I’m not going to say I’m not stressed because at times I am – but then again I am only human! But I’ve learnt to control my levels of stress and anxiety, and therefore reduce the panic attacks.
I know everyone gets stressed around these times, if you don’t I’m extremely jealous! But also, I’m glad I do because it has shown me just how far I have come in the last year. I’m not getting the top grades, but then I never expected to. I’m happy with how well I’m doing right now, but I’m even happier with how I’ve developed as a person.
Thing is though, I can’t take all the credit! I’m studying at Portsmouth University and honestly without the support they have given me, I wouldn’t be in second year now. At the last-minute last year they helped me prepare for my exams. This year, every week I’ve had coaching on how to deal with university life. How to deal with deadlines. How to deal with myself and my mind. And without them, I honestly would not be where I am today.
I know it’s hard to ask for help – trust me I understand! But it’s worth it. I didn’t even realise I was calling for help. I was just talking to my tutor about how classes were going when I mentioned about being ill. She instantly pointed me in the right direction without me having to ask. I truly cannot thank her enough!
I was then passed to the Disability Services at the University. At first, I was shocked. I was also scared. I had never even thought I’d end up visiting there, it was something that had never crossed my mind. But I can guarantee you now, it’s something you will never regret!
The people there are amazing. They will help you with anything and everything. Talk to you if you need to be heard. Offer you all the support you need to pass your degree and enjoy the experience.
It may seem like a daunting experience at first, embarrassing even, but in the long run, not only will you pass your degree, but you’ll enjoy doing so. Don’t hold back on what you need. When and if you need help, just ask for it. There are so many people surrounding you, ready to carry you through that I can guarantee you wont regret asking for help.
If you’re in need of a little stability, a little courage, or just someone to talk to please do reach out – I can guarantee it will be one of the best decisions you ever make!