Christmas this year has been different. I’ve enjoyed it but for different reasons to before, whether that’s due to me getting older, or not I don’t know. But its definitely been different.
This is my first Christmas in a long time without Tristan. While to most people this probably sounds like nothing, to me its made me realise just what he means to me.
Tristan is my best friend and has been for nine years now. Each Christmas we would go looking around London together, being typical tourists. We would visit Winchester market, look at the same cookery stall each year. Make gingerbread houses, decorations, you name it we made it. We visited Dartmouth every Christmas, would spend the weekend there on the winter coast. I really do miss these memories.
I haven’t done any of these this year. Not because I don’t want to, I’d love to, but I just can’t face it without him.
We’ve spent Christmas day together for so long today was weird without him. Weird not buying presents for each other, weird not cooking meals together, weird not being together. I got upset walking into Hollister without him, let alone spend a Christmas without him, I’m so proud of him and where he has come and I couldn’t be happier for him but I do miss him.
I visited his parents this morning, and honestly, that was the best part of my day. It felt so nice to see how happy they were to see me. I loved spending the morning with them, and if I could have, I would have spent the whole day with them. I miss them so much too. They were such a large part to my life, literally my family. Spent more time there than at my own home, but I didn’t realise until today just how much they mean to me. I really do love them, they are amazing, inspirational people and I feel so lucky to have them in my life. I hope, that even with Tristan on the other side of the world, they can still be a part of my life. I love being around them, and feel so at ease in their home, I truly do miss them.
I then spent the afternoon with my family. I had both sets of grandparents round this year something that hasn’t happened in a while. But it was great to see them all. Being at uni means that I rarely get to see my family so today was truly amazing. I got to spend time with my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins – what more could I ask for. That was my best present of the day, what I was most looking forward to.
While it was a weird Christmas, and its come by so fast, I have enjoyed myself but not because of the presents I received but because of the people I got to spend the day with. It really was a day to remember and has taught me to appreciate people more, because they are what get us through life, and without them, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I owe so much to the people around me, it’s just horrible to think that its only days like this where we thank them for everything they’ve done.
Christmas is so different now I’m older. When I was a kid, like any other kid, it was all about presents, but now it wouldn’t bother me if I didn’t have any. Just being surrounded by family is enough.
I don’t want to get older, but at the same time, its teaching me how to learn from life and allowing me to appreciate everything and everyone I have around me.
Just like the old classic “I wish it could be Christmas everyday”.
Merry Christmas everyone. I hope you too, got to spend it with people you love.