It’s been one of those days today. I woke up feeling great, but I’m going to bed feeling rubbish. But on the upside, it’s made me realise just what I’ve got, and made me appreciate the people around me.
I’ve got coursework due in next week and I haven’t done it. Not because I’m lazy, but because it has all fallen through. I had a main idea and a back up, but both no longer stand for reasons that can’t be adjusted. So I’ve come up with an alternative.
Admittedly I got stressed. Stressed beyond belief, but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t.
I know what I hand in wont be great, I know I have no excuse, but I just really want to do well.
Today wasn’t a great day, for a number of reasons. But at the same time, it was another stepping stone to success.
I stopped myself, thought about what I was doing, and prevented things from occurring – vague I know, but it means a lot to me.
I realised just how much support I have around me. Take my best friend Natalie for example. We do the same course, and while at times that proves competitive, it’s also very helpful. We’re there for each other through everything – home, uni, friendship, work – you name it, we’ve discussed it. We both stressed out today, but if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be here right now. I owe so much to her and her determination. I really do look up to her.
I also realised the amount of support I have from my family. I found out recently that members of my family read my blog (sorry if you’re reading this). At first, I was shocked, and it made me not want to write any more, but now I’ve changed my mind. My blog is where I open up about myself, about my life. I don’t confide my problems in people, so I guess this is their only way of knowing what is going on. Anyway, today I realised just how much they are there for me. I called them in desperate need of help, while it was only over coursework, they were all more than happy to help. If I ever need them, they really are only a phone call away. Going home today also made me realise that I do miss home. Recently I’ve been home a lot because being at uni just hasn’t felt right, and in all honesty I can’t wait for Christmas! I just want to live at home now. Living with friends is great, but it’s just not a great lifestyle.
I’ve also realised just how great it is to have a counsellor. This is something I don’t share with people. Even I thought it was a bad thing to have but it’s really not. They truly are great. Without them, I wouldn’t still be at uni, and I wouldn’t be sorting my life out. Admittedly today was another drop in the line, but it can always pick back up again. I always moan to myself about how I have to attend appointments each week, but today, I’m looking forward to my next one. I want to talk to someone about my problems today. I want to explain how I fought against them. How I got to where I am.
I truly do have the most amazing people around me.
It took a while for me to realise this, but I hope now I can cherish them and make the most out of a bad situation.
Here’s to tomorrow?